My Sweetheart

Hi guys,

Sorry for not posting anything for the last few days. I have been busy. Nope, not busy with my studies. Something else. Although I should've been though.  If you guessed I was too engrossed with my sweetheart, then you're right!

Aha, let me describe for you what kind of person she is.  She's the most perfect creature that I have known for a very short period of time. She has the looks, the personality, etc. She just has everything that every man desires.  Curvy body, beautiful voice... melodious. Nothing to compare her with. She's my only one.  The one who I believe I will be with for a very, very, very long time.

Enough with the fairy tale. Allow me to introduce you guys to my honey...

Sara...

This is Sara. My new and lovely companion here in Kg. Marjon.  Isn't she just pretty??? Hehe... She's worth everything (if only you guys knew the story). Huhuuhu...

Through happiness & sorrow, I promise that we'll endure them together. Forever.

Off-task Kejap Bersama Shidiey!

Hurm.. okay.. I haven't done my reading for tomorrow's tasks... Aaargh! Gonna die la if like this... Anyways, I've already prepared my breakfast-cum-lunch. Okay, not too bad. At least I've achieved something.  And.... yeah, my group has also done the SE presentation for our school tomorrow. Alhamdulillah. One big burden has been lifted from our shoulder.  Actually, the reason why I'm writing this right now is because... I'm addicted to blogging!!! WTH?!! It's like taking drugs, you know. I just can't resist the temptation although I don't have anything good to write. OMG! I need to stop this habit. I know it's a good thing but I just can't control myself. I mean I don't know how to organise my priorities. I'm willing to spend most of my time blogging rather than doing my academic tasks. This is not good... No. This is not healthy!  But, hey! Look on the bright side. I'm training myself to be expressive as well as practising my writing skills. Yeah, I know. This is not academic but at least I'm writing something especially in English. Perhaps the word 'expressive' isn't that strong. How about 'extrovert'? Yup, I think that will do.  Hehe... Erm... What else? Oh yeah! My honey will be arriving tomorrow.  Can't wait to see her. You know, when I first met her, it's like love at first sight. Yeah, you heard me.  I immediately fell in love with her. However, the funny thing is, I don't know her name. What? I gotta be kidding with myself.  How on earth can I have a crush on her if I don't even know her that well?  Well, let it be a mystery.... *Misteri Nusantara sound effect*... Hehehe.. Erm, since I still don't know anything about her, which I actually don't even bother about it, how about you guys help me suggest one? Make it only one word and the most important thing is... it's a girl's name. Could you do that for me?  Please leave your suggestions in the comment section BELOW *RWJ style*.  Alright guys, that's all for today. Will write again soon. Take care. Daaa~

Salam. ^___^

Bila Niat Disalah Ertikan...

Niatku sering disalah ertikan,

Setiap gerak geriku juga sering diperhatikan.

Ke sana ke mari ada saja yg mengekori,

Seperti diri ini seorang selebriti.

Tatkala hati rasa tidak keruan,

Ku bingung keseorangan.

Apakah semua ini hanyalah satu dongengan?

Hidup dalam kepura-puraan.

Ku sedar diri ini tidaklah sesempurna mana,

Namun mereka tidak menghiraukannya.

Tapi aku juga seorang insan biasa,

Yg punya hati untuk merasa.

Tidak layakkah diriku ini untuk bertanya?

Atau adakah harta, pangkat, & paras rupa yg menjadi ukurannya?

Jujurlah kepada diriku ini wahai sekalian manusia,

Apakah dosaku sampai ku diperlakukan sebegini rupa?

(Shidiey, 17 Oktober 2010)

Taufan Insomnia Melanda lagi!

Aduh! Napala xleh tdo lg ni? Bdn da penat gila kot... ptg td (Oct 16) pla aku g jogging.  Tawaf satu Marjon. Baru aku perasan... Marjon da jd chantek upanya.. huhu.. Back to the story, mata aku da sakit sgt da..tp still xleh tdo.. mata da macam panda...adoyai! Kalau aku wat keja Michael Hall & Roisin xpala juga... ni asyik blogging, facebooking, youtubing, watching Asian movies, by Asian I mean Japanese & Korean movies.  Hurm... I'm a total loser.. +_+

Bila da kena insomnia... apa lg...td aku g belasah 2 paket maggi Asda... yg prawn tu.. tp aku amik mi jela. rebus..tos..n then letak kicap Adabi mkn ngan serunding.. TERBAEK sehhh!! However, makin gemukla aku jwbnya!  Although muka aku da jd chubby n nmpak comey (syok sndri), aku still xsuka. Aku nak kurus oooiii!! Kalau aku 'besar' (tak elok ckp gemuk), payah nak gerak n selalu rs xselesa. Especially time duduk. Perut 2 rasa berlipat2 ja...cam nak potong je lebihan2 kat perut ni... Aarrgghh! Hurm...oh ya, Don't call people fat, use the word 'corpulent' or 'chubby'. It's more subtle.  People tend to get offended if you call them fat. BELIEVE me. 

Moving on to a different topic, actually ada 3 bnda dlm wish list aku.  Tp memandangkan elaun yg aku dpt recently tidak menyebelahi aku, I've decided to fulfil only one of them, which is buying a new guitar!  And I've already bought it 2 days ago. iAllah Tuesday ni (waktu UK) smpaila. Tak sabar nak jamming ngan gitar baru. Ngah semangat ni! Hehe... Oh ya, since I'm already broke, I won't be taking any guitar lessons like what I've mentioned in the previous post.  Aku xnak mengada2 lg. Taubat da... =_='

Here's a song, King of Anything, by Sara Bareilles.  It's so catchy. I Lyke...huhu. Credit to Peydot for introducing it to me. Oh ya, Zaf & Peydot were hanging out at my place the other day (bukan main gantung2 kat bilik k). And this was one of the songs that they sang.  Forgot to mention, dorg ngah Kbox time tu. hehe... I'd like to play this song on the new guitar. It'd be awesome! Yeeepi!! ^__^

Enjoy! :)

SHINee - Hello

Thanks to Timi for introducing this song to me. Really like it! ^__^

I just smiled all day long... :)

The afternoon sun was shining brightly over the horizon,

From far, I was scrutinising her,

Almost like stalking her I would say.

But I couldn't conceal myself from her.

I was just too visible. Too obvious for nearly any strangers or creatures to see.

She spotted me. As if I was being caught red-handed for committing a crime. 

A crime that I didn't realise. A crime that perhaps I didn't actually do.

Hence, I walked towards her. 

The tangerine light quickly blinded me.

She didn't want me to see her. To see her true features.

My vision was somewhat blurry as I gained myself close to her.

"Aaah... There she is", I said.

I was tempted to touch her. 

But my arms, my feet, just couldn't move.

I asked myself, "What's happening?"

At that time, she was stepping backwards.

Endeavouring to distance herself from me.

"No, please don't go!", my voice was cracking, disappearing, slowly.

She was now gradually sinking into the ground.

The earth was swallowing her inch by inch.

Until one point, her tangerine light was visible no more.

She had gone and I was not sure if I could see her again tomorrow.

I was terribly heartbroken.  Tears rolled down my chubby face.

She was just so dear to my heart.

I glanced away, thinking of moving on.

Then, I noticed a white figure, not far from where I was.

She was fair. She was so beautiful and radiant.

"Are you here to replace her?", I asked.

But there was no reply. She didn't hear me, perhaps.

I forgot that my voice hadn't recovered yet.

But I didn't feel down.

In fact I was profoundly happy.

Her presence had made my day again.

"Thank you.", I said, not even sure if she could hear me this time.

I just laid down on the field that night, gazing at her beauty.

Hours passed by and I didn't even move an inch.

I didn't want to miss her and that's what I did, staring at her all night long.

Until I noticed it was finally dawn again.

Time to say farewell.

Yet I was too tired to say anything to her.

I closed my eyes for a while, just to revive myself again.

When I opened up my eyes, she was nowhere to be seen.

Yes, she's finally gone.

At a distance, the flowers were gently swaying in the breeze.

As if they were dancing to a melodious song.

I smiled looking at this. And I just smiled all day long.

(Shidiey, October 16, 2010)

Thanks my friend. :)

Di dalam kesempitan yg mencengkam hidup aku skrng ni, ada juga hamba Allah yg sanggup membantu aku.  Dia ckp nak tlg aku cari kerja. Sgtla girang hati ni bila menerima khabar tersebut.  Sungguhpun begitu, dia ckp jgn berharap sgt. Mungkin dapat tapi mungkin juga tak dapat. Berdoa sajala..tawakkal... Apapun, aku amat terhutang budi dgn dia. Semoga Allah membalas segala niat baik dia dgn kebaikan. Aminn... 

'Kesempitan'... The Declaration.

I feel like it's necessary for me to write all the thoughts that are lingering in my mind right now. 
Our allowance is finally in... yeah, I got money...But it's only for a while.  After doing some calculations, it seems that there's so little left to spend.  Ya Allah... *sigh*.... Perhaps this is the consequences for not thinking SANELY before spending all the money that I got previously.  I was overwhelmed by nafs (temptation) at that time. And for that reason, I end up having not enough money right now.  I deserve this... It's all my fault. Hopefully this will be a good reminder for you guys out there.  Think carefully before buying anything.  Think whether it's a must or just merely a need...so that you won't regret or feel guilty about it in the future.  To my friends, sorry for not being able to travel with you guys this winter break.  Guess it's not my time. Well, I myself not even sure about when that time is supposed to be either. Dad...mom...sis... Hani... Sorry... I don't think I'll be going back this coming Summer... Still... I'll figure out something... Hurmm.. *sigh again*


With that, I officially declare myself as broke again.

Tell Them...

Tell them that you're doing well,

That everything is perfectly fine;

Although, in IRL, you might fail,

Well, again, you just have to get up & shine.

Tell them how you feel,

Even if your voice is merely a song of romance;

Don't hesitate & act like an imbecile,

For you might not get a second chance.

Tell them...

Tell them...

Just tell them...

(Shidiey,15 October 2010)

An Introduction To The Japanese Realm

Hi guys! As you already know, I'm trying to learn Japanese at the moment. After browsing & downloading several learning resources for quite some time now, I finally came across with a website which 'claims' to be one of the best resources to teach Japanese effectively. In fact, it might be the most reliable and effective one. I'm just saying.  The website is TextFugu. It sounds funny, doesn't it? But that's the name & you guys will just have to bear with it. :P

Well, I don't like promoting stuff but I think I HAVE TO at this stage. Generally, I just successfully went through the long introduction to the website. It's not that long but for a novice like me who likes to do things and expects an instant fruitful output from something, it is kind of long and draggy.  Having said that, surprisingly, I didn't feel bored going through every page of it.  The author, a guy who is only known as Koichi, has really succeeded in keeping me interested in his so-called How-To-Learn-Japanese 'textbook'.  I mean everything that he says in the website does make sense to me.  Perhaps all business people have the same marketing strategy to attract their customers to buy their products - persuasion.  The only thing that preventing me from subscribing to his programme is only due to money restriction.  The programme is basically divided into two packages: Monthly OR Forever. The monthly cost for subscribing it is $20.  However, if you're a long-term kind of person, I'll definitely suggest you to opt for the latter which will only cost you $120.  Let me emphasise it once again for you. You'll get the privilege of accessing the resources.... FOREVER!  That's equivalent to having to pay half a year for the former one!  You do the Maths if you don't believe me.  It's up to us to choose which suits us the best.  Oh yeah, it does have sections where you can try out things for free.

I think that's it. I'll write again about my learning progress soon (hopefully tomorrow). Till then. Salam & daaaa~ 

Just writing...

I went back early from school today. Not that early though. Around 1400 hour perhaps?

The reason was the school was having a Dimension Day. 

Don't ask me what it is. 

Even one of the teachers that I met was quite blur about it. Doesn't make any sense, does it?

So what did I only do there?

Well, one word. OFF-TASK.

Seriously, my friends and I were gossiping about everything. 

From Asian to the Western stuff. Sweet memories... Hahaha!!

So, basically we're not able to perfectly complete our SE tasks. Too bad.

Just watched a Korean movie a few hours ago. My Little Bride. Heard of it?

It's a comedy/romantic flick. Quite entertaining, really.  

Thanks to Aufa for suggesting it to me (Ni lah hasil bergossip time kat sekolah td..hehe). 

Actually, it is already in my collection. Just that I didn't have the time to watch it.

What else? Ahhh.. I really want to buy this guitar...

 

http://www.gear4music.com/Guitar-and-Bass/Yamaha-FG700MS-Acoustic-Guitar-Matt-Gloss/774

I know it doesn't really look that fancy but I like it. 

After all, it is the only non-electro/cutaway guitar that I can afford.  

It is quite expensive yet it is still in my budget range.

So, I guess why don't just I give it a try? 

The only thing that stops me from getting it is due to the allowance.

Gosh, when is it gonna come in?! 

Signing off~

Sleep deprived... @_@

These few weeks, I really didn't sleep well. Felt so hot during the night, hence I had to turn on the fan. Yeah, you heard me. You can call me crazy for doing such thing during autumn right now but I felt extremely uncomfortable when I was sleeping.  I get this kind of notion when I play football in the evening. Nevertheless, I'm not sure why I couldn't get a good night rest even when I didn't do any physical trainings during the day...hurm... Advice please? Anyone?

Belated Conclusion 10/10/10

Salam wbt... Hi... 


It's been a while since I wrote something in this blog. During that time, there were just too many things occurring here & there.  I could say I wasn't in that peak condition to manage them accordingly (FAIL!!!!!).  Well... let just me conclude them in points... Shall I?

• I have stopped playing with my Xbox 360 (Konon nak taubat). But, seriously. I have really packed it and put it inside my closet. 
• Currently addicted to Asian stuff. What I mean is Japanese & Korean dramas & movies. Not to mention, Manga.
• Also, I'm learning Japanese language at the moment. Just for fun. Hopefully, I can say some wicked Japanese words in the future. It would be awesome!
• I got my guitar-playing motivation back. I'm looking forward to buy a new guitar which will be better but more expensive than my previous one (planning to sell my old one...anyone interested?).  Then, I'm planning to take a step forward in my interest of playing guitar by going for classes. How's that sound? So..so..excited!
• Got demotivated in playing football. Suddenly I lost interest in it. Don't know why. Hence, I'm officially retiring from it TEMPORARILY. Hopefully it won't be too long.
• And other things...blablabla...

Basically, that's it. Looking forward to hearing from you guys (your comments) soon. Till then. Daaa~

Niat...

As what has been promised before this, I'll share a hadith with you guys today.  Dan hadis pada hari ni adalah merupakan hadis yg sangat popular dalam kalangan masyarakat kita pd umumnya.  Even budak2 kecik pun dah leh paham konsep hadis ni...Hadis ni, tak lain tak bukan adalah berkisarkan tentang niat yakni permulaan kpd segala amalan.

Drpd Amirul Mukminin Abu Hafs Umar bin al-Khattab r.a., aku mendengar Nabi s.a.w. bersabda, "Sesungguhnya semua amalan perbuatan adalah dinilai mengikut niat.  Setiap org dinilai dgn niatnya.  Sesiapa yg berhijrah kpd Allah & Rasul-Nya maka hijrahnya dinilai mengikut niatnya menuju kepada Allah & Rasul-Nya.  Sesiapa yg berhijrah utk mndapatkn dunia atau wanita untuk dikahwininya maka hijrahnya dinilai mengikut tujuan Hijrah itu."

(Riwayat al-Bukhari & Muslim)

Penjelasan

• Amalan hanya diambil kira jika disertai dgn niat.  Apa yg dimaksudkn dgn amalan ialah segala perkataan & perbuatan yg dilakukan oleh mukallaf sama ada fardhu atau sunat...sedikit mahupun banyak.
• Hijrah pula ialah meninggalkn sesuatu kpd sesuatu yg lain yakni dlm syarak, meninggalkn larangan Allah s.w.t..

(Tuhfah al-Ahwazi)

Sumber: 300 Hadis Bimbingan karya Ustaz Zahazan Mohamed & Ahmad Hasan Mohd. Nazam (2007). M/s 2&3. KL: Telaga Biru.

Saya akan cuba kongsikn hadis-hadis drpd pelbagai tajuk seperti amal, solat, puasa, etc... So, Insya-Allah, setiap hadis yg dikongsikn akan menyentuh tajuk2 yg berbeza.  Maafkan sy seandainya terdapat kesilapan & kekurangan di dalam apa yg sy cuba kongsikan & juga kerana tidak dapat memasukkan versi original hadis dalam bahasa Arab kat sini.  Sesungguhnya Allah sahajalah yg Maha Mengetahui dan sy ini cumalah insan yg lemah & hina disisi-Nya. Wassalam...

Hadis-hadis...

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Sebentar tadi (dalam jam 11.20 pm waktu UK), aku pergi jemput seorang sahabat kat stesen bas Bretonside.  Dia baru je balik from Malaysia.  Alhamdulillah, dia selamat sampai kat Plymoyth. Risau gak coz dia balik sorg2 & instead of going back by train dia terpaksa naik bas coz tiket train agak mahal time dia nak beli tu.  Bas dia pla smpai Plymouth lewat malam & it's a good thing if there's someone that she knows leh amik dia kat stesen bas.  Dan di situlah aku muncul... hehe... 

Before dia balik ari tu, aku pesanla kat dia suru belikan beberapa buah buku agama sbg ole-ole.  Alhamdulillah, even though dia cuma dpt belikan sebuah buku je, aku still bersyukur.  And... this is where the best part comes in... Aku order kat dia sebuah buku...tajuknya '300 Hadis Bimbingan' oleh Ustaz Zahazan Mohamed & saudara Ahmad Hasan Mohd. Nazam.  Di dalam buku ini, terdapat 300 hadis sahih yg mencakupi pelbagai bidang termasukla ilmu, amal, berjemaah, doa, akhlak, etc... memang banyak sgt.. nak list kat cni pun payah. So, aku plan nak share hadis2 ni kat dlm blog aku ni... perhaps at least dua tiga kali seminggu? Satu hadis bg tiap2 ari tersebut...Or..Maybe every day? Tengokla camna... Takut nanti kena bg amaran copyright la pla klu aku maen share je skali semua.  What do you guys think? Please leave your comment in the comment section below. Oh ya, credit to my shabat td juga coz dia yg bg cadangan ni kat aku... & memang aku setuju gak ngan idea ni.  Kalau ada ilmu yg baik kenala share2, betul tak? hehe.. 

If I Die Young...

"If I Die Young"

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had, just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I’m as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I’ve
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there’s a
Boy here in town says he’ll, love my forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I’ll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I’m a goner
And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’
Funny when your dead how people start listenin’

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls

This is the lyrics of The Band Perry's hit song, 'If I Die Young' (click this link to watch the vid clip).  I found this song on Youtube this morning and once I've heard it, immediately, I fell in love with it.  Just read the lyrics. It is so beautiful, don't you think so?  I know this is girlish, but, hey, it's not wrong to show your 'sweetness' sometimes...hehe...

*flower pix: http://media.photobucket.com/image/rose%20on%20a%20grave/naftata1/red_rose_on_a_grave__in_Bellu_by_sc.jpg

Penatla... =_='

Assalamualaikum wbt...Salam sejahtera....

Hari ni aku rasa penat giler... Tapi bukanla sebab aku berlari 20 round pusing padang Marjon..Oh..bukan.. Penat sebab menyambut ketibaan junior2 yg baru smpai from Malaysia (Macam aku pula yg travel jauh..).  Lebih kurang 12.40 pm (waktu UK), mereka pun tiba kat Marjon ni dgn selamat... Alhamdulillah. Tapi yg sedihnya, 3 org tak kelihatan td. All from IP Gaya. Hurm..kesian gak ngan 3 org ni sebab dorg xdpt fly together2 ngan classmates dorg. Sebabnya? Ni suma sebab Visa kena rejectla ni.. In the end of day, dorg terpaksa pula buat visa balik...duit lg.. aku dgr2 dorg abes total dlm RM3000 kot..Giler! Nasebla time aku nak fly dulu takde jd hal2 camni. Syukur sgt2... Skrng dorg2 ni terpaksala fly ngan budak2 IP lain.. Entah bila dorg nak smpai cni. Hopefully you guys dptla fly secepat yg mungkin..InsyaAllah..Amin...

Aku rasa hepi gak hari ni coz I finally have a new housemate! Bilik dia sebelah bilik aku jerrr... Yg beshnya dia junior aku kat Gaya dlu..senangla ckit..xdela rs kekok. Yg lg besh sebab aku leh solat berjemaah ngan dia.. dptla tmbah pahala pasni..huhu...  Tapi, aku terkilan ckitla... bukan sebab dia..sebab aku xdpt bkenalan ngan junior2 from IPKB. Lum ada rezki lg kot. Budak Gaya takpala coz dah kenal dr IP Gaya lg... Yg budak2 from IPKB ni je... Ramai kot aku tak kenal. Hurm...

Tu jela kot. tak taw nak share apa ngan korg... Ngah blur2 lg ni... +_+'

hehehe.. I'll figure out something what to write tomorrow.  Harap2 takdela seboring yg  ni... Aku yg tulis sndri ni pun rasa bosan..ahaha.. Kla, take care guys... Daaaa~ ^^

That Girl...

Hi guys! I don't have anything interesting for you today (Oooo..So sad..).  I'm so tired... I mean really2 tired.  Nonetheless, I don't want to leave you guys with nothing so I thought I just share with you one of my favourite Youtube songs, 'That Girl' by David Choi.  David is an amazing guy. He's an independent musician. He sings... He writes... He produces his own songs... He even produces songs for other Youtubers too!  Isn't that cool?? An Asian dude with a big talent- that's what he is.  Well, enough with the intro let's just listen to the song... :) 

Oh, tonight I'm feeling fine
I'm alone, just wasting time
No Friday movie nights
Or romantic candle lights

I'm just having conversations
With the thoughts in my head
All I hear are angels crying
Oh, won't they just sing instead
It would be wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Honestly, this won't do
How is she doing?
I tell myself I'm feeling swell
But I know I'm such a fool

I could take it as a new beginning
But you know I don't feel that way
Who will take all this pain away?
I know it's wrong for me to say
I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Talk about a sin
Was the day I walked into the other side
I would run back in
I wouldn't waste no time
I know it's wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qDTKAHk_T5k

Obviously guys, I don't own this song, okay? I'm just sharing it with you.  Oh yeah, please support David by subscribing him on Youtube.  His username is davidchoimusic.  He has just come out with a new album so you might probably want to check that out too~

Y^^ ~Enjoy guys~ ^^Y

A Letter To A Friend...

Dear Shidiey,

What's up bro? Are you okay? Your last letter didn't reflect that you're feeling good. You sounded dreadful. What's wrong?  I thought you're happy with your life there? You know, since you're in the UK, you got all the freedom that you profoundly wanted before. No one's gonna tell you to do this and that...all the DOs and DON'Ts... Everything is all up to you now. Come on...tell me.. what's bugging you my friend?

Yours truly,

Shidi

Dear Shidi,

Hi bro... Yeah, I'm fine...physically. Mentally...spiritually, I'm not. I just don't know.  There's something missing in me.  I just can't figure it out what it is.  I regard myself as a puzzle and a piece of that puzzle...a piece of me is missing.  I have tried to look for it but still, it's nowhere to be found.  Perhaps I didn't really try my best to search for it... or maybe I just didn't really open my eyes widely enough.  I don't know bro.  I'm kinda lost right now.  If only I could see the 'light' that everyone has been looking for.  If only my heart could see it. If only I could catch that light and hold it firmly in my hand.  If only I could lock it inside of me and never let it go again... Oh, life would be so much better for me right now.  Huh... *sigh*... Guess I'm just making things even more complicated, right?  I wish I have all the right words to tell you now.  Unfortunately, it's not that simple. You know what I mean. Well, people often say that life sometimes isn't always good to us.  Are they even sure about this?  Life has ALWAYS been good to us.  It's just us who are blind enough to realise it... and the sad part is, I'm in the middle of it. Can you believe that? Lost in the pitch dark night with nothing to light my way.  I know this is getting nowhere for you.  I'll just end this here. Thanks for listening pal. Appreciate it. Looking forward to hearing from you soon. Till then, take care.

Yours sincerely,

Shidiey

 

Alhamdulillah...

Alhamdulillah... 

Hari ini adalah hari ke-2 aku berpuasa dalam bulan Syawal. Hopefully, Allah SWT will give me the opportunity and the strength to fast again tomorrow. Amin...

Alhamdulillah...

Aku bersyukur kerana pagi tadi aku telah dibangkitkan drpd 'mati kecil'.  Bayangkan seandainya aku telah benar2 terlelap buat selama2nya, mesti aku akan rasa menyesal kerana aku tahu amalan ku masih belum cukup lagi untuk menyelamatkan aku drpd azab & seksaan di akhirat kelak. Nauzubillahhiminzalik... 

Alhamdulillah...

Aku rasa bertuah kerana mempunyai rakan2 yang sentiasa memberi sokongan & dorongan kepada ku selama ini. Dalam senang ataupun susah, mereka sentiasa membimbing aku.  Jika aku hanyut dalam lautan yg bergelora, mereka ada untuk menyelamatkan aku.  Walaupun agak susah untuk mencari sahabat yg sejati, namun aku percaya tetap akan ada satu di dalam seribu. InsyaAllah...

Alhamdulillah... 

Sudah berbulan lamanya aku tidak merasakan nikmat solat fardhu berjemaah. Maksud aku, solat fardhu 5 waktu sehari & semalam.  Sebentar tadi, sahabatku Nizam menziarahiku.  Ku sambut kehadirannya dgn hidangan kuih raya dan segelas air Robinson.  Walaupun agak simple tapi at least aku cuba untuk meraikan beliau. Pelbagai topik yg kami bicarakan. Dari permainan video hinggalah mengenai junior2 kami yg bakal menyertai kami di Kg. Marjon ini tidak lama lagi.  Sedang asyik bercerita, tiba2 suara azan berkumandang dari corong laptop aku.  Telah masuk waktu Isyak rupanya. Aku pun mengajak beliau utk solat berjemaah bersama. Waaaahh... sungguh seronok dpt bersama2 menegakkan tiang agama.  The feeling is just indescribable...Sudah terlalu lama aku tidak merasakan perasaan seperti itu. Nizam, terima kasih kerana sudi mengunjungi ku di 'teratak' kecil ku ini. Ku amat menghargainya. 

Alhamdulillah...

Ini merupakan entry yg ke-2 di dalam blog ini. Nampaknya, telah ada peningkatan. Ini suatu kebanggaan buat diriku kerana aku tidak pernah menghabiskan masa menulis sesuatu selain daripada memenuhi tuntutan2 akademik.  Aku kena raikan kejayaan ini. Mungkin dengan bermain FIFA 10 di Xbox 360 slim ku yg baru? Hurm...*tersengih*...

Thanks for reading guys. InsyaAllah, I'll write again tomorrow. Assalamualaikum wbt...Peace be upon you...      

01:05 a.m.

It's 01.05 a.m. on Wednesday morning.  I couldn't sleep. Well, it's not that I couldn't, it's because I didn't want to. Doesn't make any sense, does it? This is the first time I'm writing something in a blog...is it in or on?? whatever...  Wait a second...it's not actually my first time. I did have a blog before..on Friendster. Are people still using that? I mean, since we're already addicted to Facebook (sorry for all the Friendster lovers out there).  It's probably wise to stick to merely one social network website. Unless you have multiple hands and brains to function at the same time...Then, only then, it'll be a different story.

Oh yeah, I don't really like to write so forgive me if I have somehow broken any of the writing codes, ethics, or whatever you guys want to call it. I'm just the new kid on the block. I need some guidance from all the experienced bloggers.  Yeah, you guys. Who else? Well, this is crap... *smirk*... Sorry guys. Just my first time. I still don't know what to write in here. If you guys have any suggestions, please share them with me. I'll be more than glad to listen (to read).. hehe.. :)

That's all for now... Thanks...